Today has been a good day

Sometimes, I get really sad. I feel like the entire world is moving so quickly and I'm stuck in one place. I want so many careers and so many experiences but there isn't enough time in the day (and I really enjoy sleep). I've tried to maintain control over all of it - whether it be the vlog i'm working on, my thesis, my job, the potential catering company, marketing a comic book, writing screenplays, volunteering, producing charity plays...god. When it's written out this way I don't feel as bad about behaving like a psycho. I am really ambitious, that's a given, but is it at all realistic? Which things can one work on and do well at and which will wait for you in the meantime?

I've realized that the only way I won't feel bad is to accomplish the tasks I've made strict commitments to - school and work. I need money so I have to come to work and I pay for school so I really should take advantage of it. Fortunately, my thesis outline came to me at midnight the other night. True to form, I mulled over it for months, procrastinated, avoided it, procrastinated some more, and then all of a sudden, it came to me. Silly brain - will you always torture me this way?

At least that's out of the way - sorta. I still have to actually write it out...

Then there's the Vagina Monologues. I am so excited to have been part of this. I tried to produce it as an undergraduate. I collected my actors, picked dates, got a venue, and then our nun president shut it down. Apparently she's one of the women in the play who doesn't like her vagina very much. But now, not only did I get to produce it, but I'm acting out one of the best monologues in the entire show (The Flood). If you've never heard of it, the character is a 72-yr-old virgin...I hope for laughs.

And even though I feel like I screw up time and time again at work, I somehow manage to remain highly regarded by my colleagues. Don't ask me, I would've fired my ass by now. I'm like Peter in Office Space at this place. I do whatever I want, come in hours late and still nothing. In fact, I got a great bonus and salary increase 6 months ago...I guess i'm "management material."

Anyhoo...today was a great day. A prominent comic book editor called and is going to help me with a project I'm working on and get me in touch with the WW editor so s/he can help with my thesis AND THEN, to top it all off, I had an interview at DC for an internship position. Aside from the fact that those were the coolest offices I've ever seen in my life, I told my real boss about it, and he supports it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't believe it. I was ready to just take the unpaid internship and find a random job, (my choices were Starebucks, hooker, or stripper).

Now I get to be taken out to dinner by a man who adores me - again, I don't know why, minus the fact that I'm a great cook, I'm definitely a huge b*tch to deal with. He sticks around anyway. Maybe now it'll be for the free comic books I might get every week should I actually be able to get this internship.

Wow! Sometimes, I look back on the time I spent feeling sad or depressed and these days just negate all of that. And sometimes, life really does throw you a ton of luck. I think it does it to make up for all the time I spent feeling ugly and alone as an adolencent. Now that my inherent nerd is justified, I get to be and do whatever, and it's a really wonderful life...